two year anniversary

75% of my friends are celebrating their multiple wedding anniversaries or their second or third children, or something like that...

{picture taken two years ago}

today i celebrate my second anniversary of being officially + legally divorced!

i will never forget the day when my friends surprised me with taking me to one of my favorite sushi places, 34 girlfriends, boas, gifts, whistles, cards, surprises, plastic crowns, plastic rings, rubber frogs,  and lots of love and then off to a concert at the house of blues.  such a fun night!

my friends all put together a "pink book" of all the eligible guys of whom i should date.
i remember thinking while skimming through this book... dating... ahhh!  i don't know how.
after two years of re-practice and learning, i think i still don't get it.

my favorite line from a guy recently is, "you are the hardest girl to date. you never have time and when you do you are with your son. i thought i was busy until i met you."

can i order a husband online?
i am ready for one.
too bad it's not like the jetsons and i can put my order in, and poof!  appear.

making time to date has been a balancing act.  when i have jackson for the weekend, i want to be with him all weekend.  last week i went on 5 different dates.  guess what.... sushi 3-5 nights!

i always wonder if the guy can tell i took less than five minutes to get ready.  or if i'll ever experience another guy finding a cherrio in my hair during dinner again...
M: "oh... uh, thank you.  that must have been from uhh breakfast or something; i'm really a clean person..."

i'm thinking if i ever get invited to watch a show/movies in pajamas and eat gluten free chex with boxed soy milk {ya know, nothing specific} or play a game with him, that will be the one i'll end up marrying.  someone who knows me best will know that i work hard, would like to play hard but need to relax hard.  enjoying fancy schmancy dates are so fun and romantic but i'm tuckered out from them.

all in all, i'm tired.
happily, gratefully, tired.